I’m starting to feel a little drunk now and enjoying it. I feel like I want to drink a little more to maintain the drunkness but last time I did that I got super wasted and threw up 5 times. There’s no perfect point of drunkness for me. I get to the point I’m at now where I enjoy little things more and I feel like just a little more and it would feel really good but there is no middle ground between this and being deathly drunk. On new years, I didn’t get as “happy” as my current state and I still wound up throwing up once. I probably could’ve kept it down but it was better to hurl it out. I’ve been watching a lot of Mike and Molly all week. It’s mostly mediocre with some good parts but I watch it mostly as a means of procrastination. I usually watch it with a blank stare on my face but after getting drunk several minutes ago, I starting making stupidly big smiles as I’m watching it. Being drunk is fun.
After rereading what I just wrote, I realize that I might have to throw up later tonight. Hopefully not. We’ll see.