This time I’m drinking completely alone and in the afternoon. Signs of alcoholism? Maybe. The thing is though, I’m not an aggressive drunk. I’m also much more sociable when I’m drunk. I’m normally pretty annoyed and short with my parents but when I’m drunk, I’m a bit more chatty with them. Alcoholism is obviously a bad thing in the long term. But in the short term, it might actually be a good thing for me. We’ll see. Realistically, I’m probably developing a problem right now, lol. Feel free to reach out to me. I could use the extra human contact.
Okay I don’t think I can make much progress in my coding. That’s not necessarily due to drunkness though. I’m pretty sure I’ll still be making no progress for the next few days. I pretty much trapped myself by aiming higher than my motivation. Hopefully I’ll finish this game, but I don’t know, we’ll see.
Another thing I wanted to point out is that even though I’m drunk, I’m still not posting these pure randomness on facebook, where people might judge me more harshly. At the end of the day, the only reason I write anything is to expose myself, to create opportunities for people to find my stuff, develop an internet presence, and hopefully make money from it. At this point, it seems like a total dead end and I just do it now cause it’s kinda fun sometimes and there are a few people who care enough to comment regularly. I really appreciate those. I don’t appreciate the art of writing much. I do appreciate it a little, but not enough to seek it out at all, let alone participate in creating it.
Well, the title already warned you that this is nonsense so please limit your disappointment in how crappy this is. I proofread everything, even when I’m drunk. So yes, this crap is proofread and I’m pretty sure it’s still crap. If I were a little more drunk, I might start blabbing about loneliness and crap. But for now, I’m not doing that cause I know that it’s the same crap a million other people and I have already written. Maybe if I were more drunk but I already drank everything. Actually, there’s still alcohol in the house but it’s not for me to drink freely and my ease of resisting to drink those is proof that I don’t have real alcoholism yet. By that logic, once I decide to drink those other drinks, it would mean that I’ve become an alcoholic. I’ll let you know when that happens.
I swear I’m not developing alcoholism. I might be starting to, but I know I’m not in any real danger because of my broke ass cheapness. At the end of the day, I don’t make much money and I spend even less so I’m very limited by how much I’ll drink. I still hate the taste of alcohol and I’m generally a good person so I’m not anywhere near the point where I would steal money from my parents to buy alcohol. For now, I’m only drinking free drinks. My brother’s friend happens to have brought some over again so I’m indulging. Speaking of stealing money from my parents, I pulled a little robinhood stunt when I was about 8 years old. At around age 7, I started to develop resentment towards my parents. I’ve tried to repair it at different times but my relationship with them is ultimately not good. At age 8, there were several weeks where I took money from a container in my mom’s room and bought soda from the vending machine. Everyday, I would buy one for myself, my friend at the time, and his brother. We’d take the can and go to his brother’s classroom and toss him a can. It felt like that went on for a while but it was probably no more than 3 weeks. If it was 3 weeks, it would be 5 days x 3 weeks x 3 cans which would only be $45, not that big a deal. I was stealing coins so that seems about right as the upper limit of how much I could’ve taken.
Previous to writing this post whilst still being drunk, I was coding my next game. I’ve been stuck on a few bugs and pretty unmotivated to fix them lately. I took 2 whole weeks off watching sitcoms. I made a bit of progress today and made even more progress while drunk. Although I’m a little clumsier while drunk, my brain still works pretty much at full capacity overall. I wonder if I’m even clumsier at all. I think I just use drunkness as an excuse to make more mistake. If I really wanted to, I’m pretty sure I can maintain my normal level of clumsiness. I also know that I’m less inhibited when drunk and would say more things that I normally wouldn’t say, like this blog post. Not that I have any secrets to blab, but I can still resist blabbing. It’s just that I’m normally pretty close to writing these kinds of nonsense but I normally censor myself and with drunkness, I give myself an excuse to be a little more random.
Whoa, I think the alcohol kicked in more while writing this post. I think I’m more drunk now than when I started. But I’ve pretty much said what I had to say already. Maybe I’ll post more random crap later on. I’m going to try coding now. I wonder if it’ll work out.
I do talk a bit about the heavy drugs, or at least talk about thinking about them since I’ve never taken them, but the drug portion was mostly about caffeine and alcohol. Well, “mostly” isn’t the right word but whatever. These descriptions aren’t too important anyway so I won’t try that hard to think of the right words to use and make any sense. There’s also a dumb pun I made where “too” also means “two” because I was talking about Borderlands 2. …Yes, I’m pointing out my “clever” puns I put in the title. …I think I’ve been talking to myself too much.
If the above link doesn’t work, you should always check here (https://tedgaming.wordpress.com/2013/10/15/where-to-download-sad-funny-truthful-podcast/) for the updated links to download the podcast. I will also provide the link to download all the episodes there and it might even have newer and better links.
If you mention Ted (my name) and this podcast, you’ll get 10% off any service they provide from branding to logo design to website design to social media to mobile apps. Basically anything that’s online (which is everything), they can help you with it. The special deal right now is that they can host your personal website for $80 a year!