As a young man, it’s hard to imagine myself getting old and losing energy. I find that I get depressed and lose motivation, but that’s not exactly the same as getting old. I still have the energy; I just can’t find a reason to use it. I don’t complain about things being a lot of work; I just complain about the annoying fucker giving me the work. For the most part, I’m still much closer to a young man than an old man with no signs of metamorphosis. I did find one thing that makes me an old man and that’s…
Candy. As I child, I remember thinking that it’s absurd how adults don’t love candy as much as kids. I still love sweets in theory, but it might be linked to my overall disinterest in life that makes me not care for candy. For many years now, I’ve found that things that look like they might be tasty turns out to taste pretty bland. I don’t even enjoy expensive foods very much. Sure, they taste good I guess, but it doesn’t really make me feel any better about life and living so it feels kinda pointless. Maybe this just has to do with me getting depressed and nothing with getting old, but feeling shitty about things certainly doesn’t feel youthful.
It’s not just Candy Crush; all match 3 games are soul crushing. Let me first go on the record and state that I play a lot of match 3 games but that doesn’t make it any less soul crushing. Part of me likes these games but a greater part of me hates myself for liking it. I’ve probably spent hundreds of hours on this game already and yet I see a lot of my facebook friends played the game a lot more than me. That’s a lot of wasted time. It’s not exactly a satisfying game to play but it’s just the perfect level of mindlessness that you can you play while exerting a minimal amount of brain juices. I usually feel miserable when I play these games because it means I’m being lazy and unmotivated. I feel like a loser every time I play it but that’s fine because I’ve already openly admitted to giving up on life.
I see so many people playing candy crush a lot. It’s a very sad sight. Do all these people constantly feel so unmotivated and lazy? Or maybe they actually actively enjoy the game which might be even sadder. I was going to include a pre-emptive apology here but I won’t be doing that because I’m not really sorry. The only thing I would be sorry for is that life sucks and people who’re (whore, lol) offended by this must have a lot of crap in their lives that they haven’t accepted yet.